I went for a run on Saturday morning! It was so good. I really was preparing myself to hate it. But I ran so much further than I thought I could in one go, then speed walked a bit, then ran again etc. Each time I ran I would pick out a target that I'd have to reach before I could slow down a bit again, but when I was half way to the target I'd realise I could go further, and when I was walking I would realise I could run again sooner than I'd planned. I was really quite slow, but I enjoyed it and I think I can get better. When I got back to my parents house I just wanted to go straight back out and do it again. But that probably would have been overdoing it. I might not have enjoyed it so much.. Next time I will time myself and I'll try to get better every time.
Friday was my three year anniversary working where I work.. How depressing! It's not so bad really.. It can be quite fulfilling, and on the whole we are making a difference. The main problem is it seems that they don't really have the top people in the higher-up positions. When the people in control keep messing things up it's embarrassing for us when we have to deal with the clients every day. And we're getting so much work, it's getting more and more high profile, in this country and internationally. There's a lot of stability in this job. It's scary thinking about leaving, but at the same time it's scary thinking about staying. I need to just stop being scared and find something I want to do, something it's worth taking the risk on.
I went to the gym for half an hour after work today. Every little helps.
I've done my measurements today...
Upper arm: 29cm
Waist: 78cm
Top of hips: 96cm
Widest point: 102.5cm
Thigh: 60cm
I think it's going to take quite a lot of effort to make a difference because I'm not huge to start off with, but I know I can make my body better so I'm going for it! I had a healthy lunch of cottage cheese and Ryvita and I really liked it, which surprised me a bit! I'll be doing this lunch more often! I've just had a look at my Day One measurements and predictions and I was completely wrong. So far my lower body hasn't really changed too much (maybe slightly bigger) and my arms and waist are maybe a bit smaller.. But it's not really ever so scientific, I'm just using a tape measure and doing it myself so it could all be completely wrong.
Monday, 22 October 2012
Thursday, 18 October 2012
18th October 2012
The sky looked like fire when I was walking home today. And the colours of the Autumn trees next to it were amazing. I need to start taking my camera out with me.
I feel really bad today. I woke up at 2:30am and didn't get back to sleep again. Maybe that's why. I'm all anxious and over-sensitive. All afternoon at work I was on the verge of hyperventilating at the thought that my telephone might ring. It did ring three times, and when it actually rang it didn't really bother me, but for some reason the thought of it ringing was putting me on the verge of a panic attack. And then I got a bit upset over some silly family stuff.. I'm feeling a bit left out now they all ove so close together and spend loads of time together and hadly bother to contact me. I don't want to be a baby about it but it is getting hurtful. And I'm too worried about how to change my life. The problem with changing job is that my current job is so secure and they do seem to value me.. I'm having a bit of a crisis of confidence, for some reason I keep managing to convince myself that this is the only job I could do. And I feel lonely and I don't know how to deal with that..
But like I said, these feelings are probably (hopefully) down to the lack of sleep last night. And the fact that I haven't been to the gym all week since Monday. This is because my arms STILL hurt after the exercise class. That's really bad, they must be so unfit and neglected. I need to do a serious health drive next week. And hopefully I'll have saved lots of money this month to put into my "saving for the future" / rainy day ISA.
I need to be better tomorrow.
I feel really bad today. I woke up at 2:30am and didn't get back to sleep again. Maybe that's why. I'm all anxious and over-sensitive. All afternoon at work I was on the verge of hyperventilating at the thought that my telephone might ring. It did ring three times, and when it actually rang it didn't really bother me, but for some reason the thought of it ringing was putting me on the verge of a panic attack. And then I got a bit upset over some silly family stuff.. I'm feeling a bit left out now they all ove so close together and spend loads of time together and hadly bother to contact me. I don't want to be a baby about it but it is getting hurtful. And I'm too worried about how to change my life. The problem with changing job is that my current job is so secure and they do seem to value me.. I'm having a bit of a crisis of confidence, for some reason I keep managing to convince myself that this is the only job I could do. And I feel lonely and I don't know how to deal with that..
But like I said, these feelings are probably (hopefully) down to the lack of sleep last night. And the fact that I haven't been to the gym all week since Monday. This is because my arms STILL hurt after the exercise class. That's really bad, they must be so unfit and neglected. I need to do a serious health drive next week. And hopefully I'll have saved lots of money this month to put into my "saving for the future" / rainy day ISA.
I need to be better tomorrow.
Wednesday, 17 October 2012
Wednesday 17th October 2012
Today I found out I got a 4% pay rise! It's not a massive amount of money, but as it was a cross-company pay rise with the percentage based on productivity I feel pretty happy with it, especially when we were told the average is 3% and my friend said the lowest we could get was 2.8%. My company has been really good to me, it's just the way I see other people being treated by them that upsets me, and I am kind of waiting for them to stab me in the back at any moment.
My arms are still killing from the exercise class on Monday evening. But my body feels so different (improved) after just one class. I need to book on to one next week to keep this up! I thought I was getting fairly fit from all the time I've been spending in the gym, but I guess I've just been doing the same thing over and over again.. I need to keep working all the different muscles. So this evening I had a go at one of the mini workouts from a magazine I bought. I think I pushed myself pretty hard with it, I'll have to try to keep this up. Now I'm starting to look forward to my first ever jog on Saturday morning.
My arms are still killing from the exercise class on Monday evening. But my body feels so different (improved) after just one class. I need to book on to one next week to keep this up! I thought I was getting fairly fit from all the time I've been spending in the gym, but I guess I've just been doing the same thing over and over again.. I need to keep working all the different muscles. So this evening I had a go at one of the mini workouts from a magazine I bought. I think I pushed myself pretty hard with it, I'll have to try to keep this up. Now I'm starting to look forward to my first ever jog on Saturday morning.
Monday, 15 October 2012
Monday 15th October
Just been to my first fitness class - Total Toning. It was really good! When I first got there I thought I would hate it because it was like circuit training and I used to be terrible at that kind of thing when I was at school, but I really got in to it. I managed to keep up with most of it, and the instructor said I did really well for a first time. I discovered some things I'm really quite good at, like planks and back bends, and I managed to keep going until right to the end. I did skipping, press ups (not so good at those), bench press weights, running, step aerobics. I want to book on to another class as soon as I can!
When I got in I made myself a cashew nut, Quorn and pea curry again, with steamed vegetables. And I had a fairly healthy lunch too.
I used my pedometer - 10963 steps, although I think between 2000 and 3000 of those were when I was accidently jiggling my leg at my desk.. 4428 aerobic steps is probably a better indicator, that's 42 mins.
We had a big presentation today from the big boss of the entire company. He's so good, really inspiring. He almost makes me forget I need to get out of there. Need to stop festering... The good news was we'll be getting a pay increase across the company, but this time it will be based on levelling out pay across the different bands and also on productivity... So there's an average of 3% increase I'm hoping for more than that because I know I work a lot more than most people in my team and I'm pretty sure I'm paid less than some.
When I got in I made myself a cashew nut, Quorn and pea curry again, with steamed vegetables. And I had a fairly healthy lunch too.
I used my pedometer - 10963 steps, although I think between 2000 and 3000 of those were when I was accidently jiggling my leg at my desk.. 4428 aerobic steps is probably a better indicator, that's 42 mins.
We had a big presentation today from the big boss of the entire company. He's so good, really inspiring. He almost makes me forget I need to get out of there. Need to stop festering... The good news was we'll be getting a pay increase across the company, but this time it will be based on levelling out pay across the different bands and also on productivity... So there's an average of 3% increase I'm hoping for more than that because I know I work a lot more than most people in my team and I'm pretty sure I'm paid less than some.
Sunday, 14 October 2012
Sunday 14th October 2012
Yesterday I had another lovely night out with some of my girls.. Charlotte's birthday in London. She hired a booth in a club overlooking Piccadilly Circus. Charlotte loved the present I got her, it was so nice to see how happy she was with it! It was a very cool evening, and actually a fairly cheap night out - £24 for the return mini bus ride and then I only paid for one cocktail for about £8. Melissa got me one too, so that's not bad for the night, my health drive is still intact.
Speaking of which, Melissa dropped me off at the gym so I spent half an hour on the cross trainer.. Then got back to town in time to go to the shops and buy a Pilates mat, and get a new battery for my pedometer so I'll start that up again now. I must have spent about 6 months monitoring my steps when I lived in Watford, trying to do as many as possible every day.
While I was at the gym I started thinking about food - started off deciding I was going to get a take-away as it's Sunday, then thought I should cook it myself as it's healthier and cheaper, then decided to go to full - on healthy with Quorn and cashew nut Thai curry with brocoli and beans. Was really good, and felt good putting the effort in to what I'm eating.
Melissa talked me into texting the ex, so that I would finally know either way whether something might happen between us. He didn't text me back. So in a way it was a waste of time because I still don't know for sure either way. But for now not getting a response has annoyed me so I'll be more proactive about seeing other men. In Marks and Spencers yesterday I saw a man. I think I was more attracted to him in the ten minutes we were in the same shop than I had been to anyone for a long time. He looked a bit like Adrien Brody. I don't usually fancy someone based purely on looks, but this was one of those times when you just look at someone and know they're the kind of person you'd like to know.. I subtly followed him around the shop for about 60 seconds then I left him to it. It was nice while it lasted!
Yesterday I got my hair cut. This must be some sort of record for me because it's only 8 weeks since I last had it cut. I'm finally putting more effort into the way I look. Last week I made sure my hair looked good, wore my contact lenses and I looked after my skin every day. I know it's a shallow sort of feeling, but it made me feel a bit better every day.
Yesterday I listened to the latest Grizzly Bear album (a couple of times). It's soooo good! Just one of those heartwarming sounds.
This evening I was singing along to The Strokes - Angles, and now I'm relaxing to The National - High Violet.
So I've got the Total Toning class tomorrow, I'm a bit scared but really excited.
Took my measurements, but the only thing that had actually gone down was my weight - down to 70.5kg (so that's -0.6kg) so I'm not going to bother writing it down this week, just work for something better next week!
So the end of this week is the end of my leave year.. Which means I should probably start applying for jobs..
Speaking of which, Melissa dropped me off at the gym so I spent half an hour on the cross trainer.. Then got back to town in time to go to the shops and buy a Pilates mat, and get a new battery for my pedometer so I'll start that up again now. I must have spent about 6 months monitoring my steps when I lived in Watford, trying to do as many as possible every day.
While I was at the gym I started thinking about food - started off deciding I was going to get a take-away as it's Sunday, then thought I should cook it myself as it's healthier and cheaper, then decided to go to full - on healthy with Quorn and cashew nut Thai curry with brocoli and beans. Was really good, and felt good putting the effort in to what I'm eating.
Melissa talked me into texting the ex, so that I would finally know either way whether something might happen between us. He didn't text me back. So in a way it was a waste of time because I still don't know for sure either way. But for now not getting a response has annoyed me so I'll be more proactive about seeing other men. In Marks and Spencers yesterday I saw a man. I think I was more attracted to him in the ten minutes we were in the same shop than I had been to anyone for a long time. He looked a bit like Adrien Brody. I don't usually fancy someone based purely on looks, but this was one of those times when you just look at someone and know they're the kind of person you'd like to know.. I subtly followed him around the shop for about 60 seconds then I left him to it. It was nice while it lasted!
Yesterday I got my hair cut. This must be some sort of record for me because it's only 8 weeks since I last had it cut. I'm finally putting more effort into the way I look. Last week I made sure my hair looked good, wore my contact lenses and I looked after my skin every day. I know it's a shallow sort of feeling, but it made me feel a bit better every day.
Yesterday I listened to the latest Grizzly Bear album (a couple of times). It's soooo good! Just one of those heartwarming sounds.
This evening I was singing along to The Strokes - Angles, and now I'm relaxing to The National - High Violet.
So I've got the Total Toning class tomorrow, I'm a bit scared but really excited.
Took my measurements, but the only thing that had actually gone down was my weight - down to 70.5kg (so that's -0.6kg) so I'm not going to bother writing it down this week, just work for something better next week!
So the end of this week is the end of my leave year.. Which means I should probably start applying for jobs..
Thursday, 11 October 2012
Day Five (Thursday 11th October 2012)
I'm still on the verge of developing a cold. I almost can't breathe through one of my nostrils. I guess the cocktails and late night last night might not have been the smartest move..
I ate a ridiculous amount yesterday, it was embarrassing. Today I was just about to go to the canteen for chocolate but I changed my mind. Mostly because I knew that if I changed my mind it would be something I'd be able to write down here as a victory.
After work I headed to the gym again, so half an hour walk there, then an hour on the alternative cross trainer machine (I need to find out what this machine is called) which burnt 800 calories! Then all of the three weights machines that I've been taught to use, followed by a little go on the Power Plate. I'm really enjoying the gym at the moment. It really gives you loads more energy - when I left work I was ready for bed, now I'm still dancing around to the Neon Neon album.
Spoke to Simone today, she's sent me details of a job she's found for me and she says she'll keep an eye out for more. I need to get as proactive for my future as she is! The problem with the job is that it's for a French speaker and I've lost all of my confidence with the language (plus, if they say French speaker it generally means a native speaker.. Might still be worth a look).
I ate a ridiculous amount yesterday, it was embarrassing. Today I was just about to go to the canteen for chocolate but I changed my mind. Mostly because I knew that if I changed my mind it would be something I'd be able to write down here as a victory.
After work I headed to the gym again, so half an hour walk there, then an hour on the alternative cross trainer machine (I need to find out what this machine is called) which burnt 800 calories! Then all of the three weights machines that I've been taught to use, followed by a little go on the Power Plate. I'm really enjoying the gym at the moment. It really gives you loads more energy - when I left work I was ready for bed, now I'm still dancing around to the Neon Neon album.
Spoke to Simone today, she's sent me details of a job she's found for me and she says she'll keep an eye out for more. I need to get as proactive for my future as she is! The problem with the job is that it's for a French speaker and I've lost all of my confidence with the language (plus, if they say French speaker it generally means a native speaker.. Might still be worth a look).
Wednesday, 10 October 2012
Day Four (Wednesday 10th October 2012)
No life changing moments today... I just made it to the end of the working day without too much trouble..
I'm getting a cold, so I've decided to go in for the "feed a cold..." saying. I ate two main meals today, and quite a lot of cake and biscuits. I've just been out for pizza and a cocktail with my housemates, they're such good girls... Worth consuming a ridiculous number of calories for them. On the plus side I did eat lots of jalepinos, which I've just read are very good for your metabolism, so maybe all is not lost... although I will be taking it easy on the food front tomorrow, and hopefully if I can keep this cold at bay I will spend a decent amount of time at the gym tomorrow evening.
Also my every-now-and-then man text me this evening asking if we can renew our acquaintance... I'm really not sure what to say. It's nice to have something on the back-burner but I know it's going nowhere so I don't think I'm in the mood for it right now.. I might delay him a bit.. Still, it's nice to feel a bit wanted.
I'm getting a cold, so I've decided to go in for the "feed a cold..." saying. I ate two main meals today, and quite a lot of cake and biscuits. I've just been out for pizza and a cocktail with my housemates, they're such good girls... Worth consuming a ridiculous number of calories for them. On the plus side I did eat lots of jalepinos, which I've just read are very good for your metabolism, so maybe all is not lost... although I will be taking it easy on the food front tomorrow, and hopefully if I can keep this cold at bay I will spend a decent amount of time at the gym tomorrow evening.
Also my every-now-and-then man text me this evening asking if we can renew our acquaintance... I'm really not sure what to say. It's nice to have something on the back-burner but I know it's going nowhere so I don't think I'm in the mood for it right now.. I might delay him a bit.. Still, it's nice to feel a bit wanted.
Tuesday, 9 October 2012
Day 3 (Tuesday 9th October 2012)
Today I made it to the gym again, one hour on the cross trainer, followed by about ten minutes on Power Plate. I kept pushing harder and harder the whole time, used the guy on the cross trainer next to me to compete with. I managed aroung 580 calories on the cross trainer. It felt amazing. I never thought I'd be a gym person but I love it. Althought I think it's time to start mixing it up a bit. Today I signed up for a Total Toning class with a friend for next Monday after work, so there's a good start. I've been thinking about it for ages, but now might be about time to give jogging a go.. It's so good for you. I've just always been so bad at it. Maybe I'll set myself a deadline when I'll try to go for my first ever jog, and get as fit as I can before then so that I don't totally embarrass myself. I'm thinking the next time I go back to my parents, so 21st October, will be my first jog. That's just under two weeks to get ready. Lot's of cross trainer between now and then.
I got in today, ate a reasonably healthy tea (hummous and wholemeal pitta, carrot sticks, olives) but followed it up with quite a few chocolate raisins.. Hopefully they're not too bad for you. At least it's quite a lot of fibre.
Then I jut came upstairs before I got stuck in front of the telly and had a shower, then put on the my new Mark Lanegan CD and tidied up a load of stuff in my room. It's hard living in a houseshare, all of your possessions have to be in the one room whereas people with their own place get a whole house.. Anyway, I feel much better with my room that bit tidier. I'm so messy... Although someone once told me it's a sign of being creative. I'll go with that.
Tomorrow I'll have to go for dinner to support my hosuemate I think, so I'll have to skip the gym. I'll try out the workout from yesterday again, see if I do any better.. And I'll do a bit more tidying.
I got in today, ate a reasonably healthy tea (hummous and wholemeal pitta, carrot sticks, olives) but followed it up with quite a few chocolate raisins.. Hopefully they're not too bad for you. At least it's quite a lot of fibre.
Then I jut came upstairs before I got stuck in front of the telly and had a shower, then put on the my new Mark Lanegan CD and tidied up a load of stuff in my room. It's hard living in a houseshare, all of your possessions have to be in the one room whereas people with their own place get a whole house.. Anyway, I feel much better with my room that bit tidier. I'm so messy... Although someone once told me it's a sign of being creative. I'll go with that.
Tomorrow I'll have to go for dinner to support my hosuemate I think, so I'll have to skip the gym. I'll try out the workout from yesterday again, see if I do any better.. And I'll do a bit more tidying.
Monday, 8 October 2012
Day Two (Monday 8th October 2012)
It's 9:45pm and I'm in bed.
This might not sound like a victory, but I've been really rubbish at going to bed recently, and I'm so tired.. I'm looking at this as an investment into doing something bigger and more important tomorrow.
I'm listening to The Shoes - Crack My Bones. It's a really cool album. And I like the kid's massive white socks and ugly loafers on the album cover. And Jake Gyllenhaal in the video for Time To Dance is pretty amazing.
Like I said, I was so tired in work today, I don't think I've ever been so close to locking my computer and curling up under my desk for a nap. This might have something to do with the two and a half hours at the gym yesterday, after dancing until 3am in ridiculous shoes on Saturday night.. I did so well to carry on and actually got a lot of work done.
I went to the supermarket on the way home and only bought healthy food (for dinner this evening I has hummous, wholemeal pitta, tomato, olives and roasted red pepper salad. Well done me). Also I bought a Women's Health magazine, some scissors, some plastic wallets to go into a folder and a glue stick. I'm going to start a scrap-book kind of thing for healthy eating and work outs. I cut out my first one and just gave it a go - it's called "Better Sex Workout"(!) and it's from Health and Fitness magazine. It's so hard! I didn't think it looked so bad, but I was really struggling! You can tell how good it is though, and it feels like it's working the places I need to concentrate on (thighs, bum, tummy..).
I just had a quick look through what's going on in the lives of the people I know and sort-of-know on Facebook, and came across a new photo of my sort-of-ex. It shocked me a bit, how good he looks.. But then luckily my lovely housemate put up a picture of me from the weekend also looking quite good. In fact, I win.
This might not sound like a victory, but I've been really rubbish at going to bed recently, and I'm so tired.. I'm looking at this as an investment into doing something bigger and more important tomorrow.
I'm listening to The Shoes - Crack My Bones. It's a really cool album. And I like the kid's massive white socks and ugly loafers on the album cover. And Jake Gyllenhaal in the video for Time To Dance is pretty amazing.
Like I said, I was so tired in work today, I don't think I've ever been so close to locking my computer and curling up under my desk for a nap. This might have something to do with the two and a half hours at the gym yesterday, after dancing until 3am in ridiculous shoes on Saturday night.. I did so well to carry on and actually got a lot of work done.
I went to the supermarket on the way home and only bought healthy food (for dinner this evening I has hummous, wholemeal pitta, tomato, olives and roasted red pepper salad. Well done me). Also I bought a Women's Health magazine, some scissors, some plastic wallets to go into a folder and a glue stick. I'm going to start a scrap-book kind of thing for healthy eating and work outs. I cut out my first one and just gave it a go - it's called "Better Sex Workout"(!) and it's from Health and Fitness magazine. It's so hard! I didn't think it looked so bad, but I was really struggling! You can tell how good it is though, and it feels like it's working the places I need to concentrate on (thighs, bum, tummy..).
I just had a quick look through what's going on in the lives of the people I know and sort-of-know on Facebook, and came across a new photo of my sort-of-ex. It shocked me a bit, how good he looks.. But then luckily my lovely housemate put up a picture of me from the weekend also looking quite good. In fact, I win.
Sunday, 7 October 2012
Day One (Sunday 7th October 2012)
Today I got up at around 10:30am. This is a victory for me considering I was out with my housemates last night in Watford until 4am. I had a really good night, but made sure it wasn't too good. I wanted to make sure I would be fit for going to the gym today!
So I timed my gym trip to coincide with the BBC showing of the Formula One. I didn't realise it would be a replay of the entire Japanese GP, I thought it was just highlights. So it meant I was working out for almost 2hrs30mins. Which really felt amazing. I like a long work out. This included 35mins rowing (over 6000m), 1hr cross trainer (over 600 calories), 30mins cycling (didn't keep track of this, I was a bit beyond caring) and a few goes on the Power Plate (this was the first time I extended the time to 45 seconds each go, I was so shocked at the difference it made! So hard!). And Kobayashi finished in his first podium position ever, at his home GP.. On the first lap I ran a bit harder on the cross trainer to try to help him, and while he was on the podium I got a little bit emotional on the exercise bike!
My main aim with going to the gym is to tone up and be a bit healthier. I'm going to try taking weekly measurements because I think that's the best way of seeing the (hopefully) improvements.
My week one measurements are as follows:
Upper Arm: 29.5cm
Waist (slimmest point): 80cm
Top of hips: 95cm
Top of legs (widest point): 101.5cm
Thigh: 60cm
Weight: 71.1kgs (took this measurement in the gym, so fully clothed and wearing trainers..)
So my aim for the week is to reduce these.. the hips/legs/thighs ones should be the easiest because I'm bigger at these points. I don't really have that much to lose off my arms and waist.
This evening I spent an hour in the bath relaxing. I haven't spent enough time properly relaxing recently so this was well needed and has made me feel loads better. I moisturised too afterwards so I'm really feeling ready to face a tough week at work (I might even be looking forward to it a bit, it's been months since I've felt like that... this positive thinking thing might already be working for me..).
I've got my nice new duvet set on my bed, I've got my new (second hand) bedside table ready to be filled up with my junk (I desperately need to de-clutter my room.. that's one of the problems with living in a house-share - all of your belongings have to be kept in the one room. Most people get to spread out over an entire house.) I've just added The White Stripes - Elephant to my new (second hand) CD rack. I'm adding a cd to the rack only after I've listened to it, to make sure I mix up what I'm listening to.
One more small victory from today - I ate pretty well. When I left the gym I veered towards the corner shop intending to buy some chocolate. I was about to push the door when I suddenly had a burst of self-control and I carried on walking past the shop. Go me!
So I timed my gym trip to coincide with the BBC showing of the Formula One. I didn't realise it would be a replay of the entire Japanese GP, I thought it was just highlights. So it meant I was working out for almost 2hrs30mins. Which really felt amazing. I like a long work out. This included 35mins rowing (over 6000m), 1hr cross trainer (over 600 calories), 30mins cycling (didn't keep track of this, I was a bit beyond caring) and a few goes on the Power Plate (this was the first time I extended the time to 45 seconds each go, I was so shocked at the difference it made! So hard!). And Kobayashi finished in his first podium position ever, at his home GP.. On the first lap I ran a bit harder on the cross trainer to try to help him, and while he was on the podium I got a little bit emotional on the exercise bike!
My main aim with going to the gym is to tone up and be a bit healthier. I'm going to try taking weekly measurements because I think that's the best way of seeing the (hopefully) improvements.
My week one measurements are as follows:
Upper Arm: 29.5cm
Waist (slimmest point): 80cm
Top of hips: 95cm
Top of legs (widest point): 101.5cm
Thigh: 60cm
Weight: 71.1kgs (took this measurement in the gym, so fully clothed and wearing trainers..)
So my aim for the week is to reduce these.. the hips/legs/thighs ones should be the easiest because I'm bigger at these points. I don't really have that much to lose off my arms and waist.
This evening I spent an hour in the bath relaxing. I haven't spent enough time properly relaxing recently so this was well needed and has made me feel loads better. I moisturised too afterwards so I'm really feeling ready to face a tough week at work (I might even be looking forward to it a bit, it's been months since I've felt like that... this positive thinking thing might already be working for me..).
I've got my nice new duvet set on my bed, I've got my new (second hand) bedside table ready to be filled up with my junk (I desperately need to de-clutter my room.. that's one of the problems with living in a house-share - all of your belongings have to be kept in the one room. Most people get to spread out over an entire house.) I've just added The White Stripes - Elephant to my new (second hand) CD rack. I'm adding a cd to the rack only after I've listened to it, to make sure I mix up what I'm listening to.
One more small victory from today - I ate pretty well. When I left the gym I veered towards the corner shop intending to buy some chocolate. I was about to push the door when I suddenly had a burst of self-control and I carried on walking past the shop. Go me!
Opening Statement
Ok, the point of this blog is to motivate myself to use my positivity to improve myself and start making things happen in my life. I am quite a positive person anyway these days, but I feel like I'm stuck in a bit of a rut. I've been working for nearly three years in a job I only really intended to stay in for a year, two years max. I've been working overtime all the time, so I haven't had much time for anything else. Now is the time to get myself geared-up for finding out what I really want to do and to start doing something about it. I need to start taking some risks (in my personal life as well as my professional life). I'm 27 and single and there is not much on the horizon at the moment in terms of romance so this is another reason I feel that I have to move to London as soon as possible (not that I'm desperate to get a boyfriend, I've been single and happy for a long time, but it might be nice to at least try being in a couple for a bit.. Especially with the prospect of another long, cold, lonely winter looming..).
SO - my theory is that improving myself and building my confidence should help towards some sort of end goal (even if my end goal is a bit vague still at the moment). Along with the obvious big steps I'll have to make I'll be keeping track of the Small Victories (they are really important with keeping positive, and recognising them will also help me to gain momentum..)
I don't really have a plan for the format of this blog at the moment, I just thought this would make my new regime a bit more official, I'll be able to make sure I actually get somewhere.
SO - my theory is that improving myself and building my confidence should help towards some sort of end goal (even if my end goal is a bit vague still at the moment). Along with the obvious big steps I'll have to make I'll be keeping track of the Small Victories (they are really important with keeping positive, and recognising them will also help me to gain momentum..)
I don't really have a plan for the format of this blog at the moment, I just thought this would make my new regime a bit more official, I'll be able to make sure I actually get somewhere.
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